2oo8 - thnk god its over

2oo8 was fine - dnt get meeh wrong. I experienced things that changed me as a person & grew up. but honestly ; I'm so ready for 2oo9 - like this is MY YEAR - I'll be LEGAL;senior PROM;graduation;college-finally gettin' away from DURHAM . sht, I'm so excited. like - getting out of durham- will be one of the most important things for me. durham is okay ; but I feel, too many things have happened here that are bad ; tht I need a new location [ Q U E E N CITY] for a new start. New people ; new everything (: (:. & o8 - friend wise. I realized a lot. I realized who my [REAL] friends are & who is just there to be there or waste my time ; or find out information- to just run & open there mouth. & I realized the sht tht happens in the past ; sometime yu cnt just focus on sht tht happened in the past ; sometimes yu gotta let go & forgive & forget & I learned to do that this year & learned that people did that to me & let me bak in there life ; even tho I made BAD decisions from the past & they still accept me.
in o8 ; I think my mom finally realized that I'm growing up & I think she understood that thoughtout this year. We had a good relationship this year unlike the years before which was hard for us. We grew a dtronger connection & I was about to tlk to her about personal stuff tht affected me. Which I loved.
& growing with my mom ; made me realize how much my dad had missed in my life & how he hasn't done any fckn thing for meeh. so this year I finally had the courage to lett'em know. which felt good to do, even tho it left him speechless ; at least I got the sht off my chest.
all in all o8 was a good year.


-but o9 is most def going to be SO much BETTER.

-goodbye o8;hello o9
happy new year.
-lc* (:

[good sht]

hoes;whores;btchs;skanks;slut-buckets.
sht; i've heard em all.
i've had sht talked about me
[ i mean whu hasn't]
but today; i was listening
to nicki minaj & gucci - [love em both]
& i was listening to slumber party -changed my status
to ;

L.c CarteR.; welcome to my private party - wen yu feeling [ f r e a k y ] we can have a slumber partyy. pussy is tighter then a choker-got yu smiling like the joker.

i kidd yu not- less then 5 min. later;
-EIGHT new msg.
-SIX new txts.
-THREE chats.

[funny sht]-FOUR of the fcbk msgs. were from niqqas CLEARLY in a relationship.
THREE of the txt; niqqas had a girlfrann.
& the chats; all niqqas - i've NEVER seen nor tlk'd to in my lifee.

---

so i was ready to see wht WEAK ass game i was about to see.

[no real names will be used ; just for the sake of these females that think there man is soo in love]

John -fcbk niqqa #1 -

John-so baby, when are you coming to see me?

LC-uh, i didn't know i was suppose to come see you.

John-yes, so you can have me looking like the joker.

LC-no response.

Jack txt niqqa #2-

Jack-nice status

LC-thanks.

Jack-whats up with it?

LC-excatly what it says.

Jack-iight well i'm bout to come over.

LC-don't think your girl would like that.

Jack-i don't think your boyfriend would either.

LC-lol; i'm single now.

Jack-if you lettin me come over, ill be single to.

LC-whatta lie

Jack-if you serious i'm serious.

LC-no response.

-dnt feel like writin' thee rest.

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remind yu- these dudes have girlfriends. i wasn't being a hoe & trying to "take their man" . I simply changed my fcbk status. yes, i admit, it was kinda raunchy; but sht- do i look like i care?

its funny how girls say --oh, she a hoe. she's tryna take my man.

about 99.1% of the niqqas that i know; cheat on their "wifee".

& yes; sometimes it is a hoe, that wants your man.

but in my case-not being cocky : niqqas just wnt to fck me. i don't "come-on" to them or anything.

maybe its my boobs (: but either way; due to recent situations; i just wnted to vent about niqqas in relationships. & how girls are so blind sided to cheating.

signed

-lc*

love him (:

usher did good with this.

checkk it outtt. (:

-lc

broken-hearted grl.

once again.once again.once again.


seven weeks.
countless hours on the phone.
txt msgn till my fingers hurt.
trying to be with a different type of dude.
thinking everything would just be perfect.
not following my gut feeling about everything- before it got too serious.
telling yu I loved yu & acutally having feeling behind it.
opening up my heart once again ; just for it to be ripped apart once again.once again.once again.
being nothin' but honest with even when I knew that it would hurt.
but still; keeping my word to tell yu the truth.
letting yu get in my mind & fill my head with thoughts of yu acutally being different : but endin up to be just the same.
seven weeks.

thas all it took to change meeh back into the mindframe; niqqas aint shit.

usually, I'll tell wht happened ; but there is no need this time, because this time...the story ended.

-signed
*single* lc):

dead beat!

so this is my love . pjay (: this is my half brother from my stupid fathers side. yea i knw; he's a lil hottie. but it fckn sucks tht my "father" is such a ass; because i never get to see my bro like i want to. even tho he lives it FLA; it kills meeh tht wen i go dwn there; i wont be seein' him because my father doesn't know how to behave & act like a father. ughh ! like a few weeks ago we got into this big thing over fckn MYSPACE about how he isn't a good father & sht; & tell meeh why this niqqa deleted meeh; i sent him this HEART FELT message & instead of being a man; he didnt even respond. how fckn rude ;then he has the NERVE to call madre & ask her what my issue was?my issue-- yur a fckn low life: who doesn't PROVIDE for the children that he HELP produce. thts my ISSUE ! so yeah; most fathers - [ suck ass ]--the end. -lc (:

-love this (:

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Mmmmmm
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
Ohhh
And now is i'm yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me
All that that means
is neither of us is listening
[and what's even worse]
that we don't even remember why were fighting.


So both of us are mad for...



Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
But we wont let it go for nothin'
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].


Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...




And it gets me upset, girl
when your constantly accusing.
[askin' questions like you've already known]
We're fighting this war, baby
when both of us are losing.
[This ain't the way that love is supposed to go].

Whoahhhh.....
[what happened to workin' it out]
We've fall into this place
where you ain't backin' down and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now...

It's all for..


Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
but we won't let it go for
nothin'...
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].


Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...



Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
[perfect, perfect, ohh ohh]
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fightlong as everythings allright between us...
before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

Baby I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].


Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

teethmarkss

ugh ; ya knw something I hate-

I [hate] people tht dnt have there own originality. like people tht act as if they dnt have a mind for themselves. someone whu cnt make up at least 5 words to make a complete sentence of there own. there own thoughts or idea. they have to j a c k someone elses. I mean like if I take something ; its usually from an artist & I make it my own by either change the appearence or words or the way in whic its typed ; but some people dnt even do that. & it just bother meeh.

& also people in general bother meeh. I honestly dnt even like tht many people: as is. but dumb ass people just make my hate for people so much worse.

like ; ugh ! I sometimes wish - I could simply re-program certain people ; so there mind would then be legit. bc I swear, most the people walking around dnt have a fckn clue to there purpose is in life.

sht - I know mine tho.
so fckk the rest .
(:


-lc