Friday, October 30, 2009


random ass thoughts again .

- people always wonder why i say i hate people, or why i don't trust people & shit like that .
its because of the experience's i've had with people i've encountered . the stupid, fucked up , mentally retarded nigga's i've met. THAT'S WHY . no one seems to be real now-a-days. even people that have been what i thought , "best friends" have been fuckers that have done some stupid shit . i know that i can't blame those FUCKERS for the shit all the time, but if 96% of the people that have appeared in my life have been like that , shit there is a fucking problem .

people don't seem to understand friendship . they don't understand its more then just hanging out, talking on the phone, and chilling. its more about loyalty , respect, trust, responsibility, & realness. they've been blindsided to all of these things because the materialistic shit takes over . no one understands how to be honest with one another. no one understands the difference between a friendship & a relationship . a relationship holds more strength between two people then a friendship. although both are important.

i just don't understand how someone that was so close to me, could hurt me so much . not understanding that words are always remember & never forgotten. but in the end, that's there problem not mine. ima still do me & be me regardless. so its there loss.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


i wish there was a pill that could make love go away .

everything would be so much better.
i could pop a pill & it will all be over.
like it never existed , never happened, nothing.

then i could forget the times we had fun & the times you made me want to murder you .
the moments we laugh & the times you had me on the verge of tears.
the times we were together & the time i caught you with someone else.

all the pain & emotional thoughts wouldn't exist.
what we had was something i never wanted to forget,
but since things are the way they are, i thinks its the perfect fix.

i would say don't take it personal, but then again,
it is personal , so listen & take it how it is.

i do what you do in reverse of when you do it to me.
so if you don't like it , next time think before you plan to just hurt me again.

[[ random thoughts right now . ]]

Sunday, October 4, 2009

venting pt.1

this is a very random post, but i swear , anything i say , is straight from my heart. i might sound rude, selfish, whatever you want to call it . but these are my feelings & thoughts right now.

these past few months i've been through alot of shit with these people that call/called themselves friends. i've had disagreements, arguements, and even fights. & throughout all of it, i found out who was REAL & who was FAKE . the fake had been eliminated. or at least i thought they had.

me personally , if you know me . know me outside of my blogs, facebook, twitter, etc. you know how i think and how i feel about situations that take place within friendships. you know that i will be direct with you when there is a problem, issues, complainant , whatever the case may be . you also know , if you are one of my REAL friends, that has been with me from the beginning since our friendship, you know that nothing would ever come between that shit .

so im stuck thinking , how is this shit, coming in between it .

& what kills me is , i'm titled the "bad influence" .
when CLEARLY , the same shit you doing now, you did BEFORE you met me. so, i'm not the reason , nor the blame for the shit that YOU do . i don't ever tell you that you have to be involved in any of the activities that surround us .

i guess we are two different people that handle shit two different ways.