thoughts.

i wish there was a pill that could make love go away .

everything would be so much better.

i could pop a pill & it will all be over.

like it never existed , never happened, nothing.

then i could forget the times we had fun & the times you made me want to murder you .

the moments we laugh & the times you had me on the verge of tears.

the times we were together & the time i caught you with someone else.

all the pain & emotional thoughts wouldn't exist.

what we had was something i never wanted to forget,

but since things are the way they are, i thinks its the perfect fix.

i would say don't take it personal, but then again,

it is personal , so listen & take it how it is.

i do what you do in reverse of when you do it to me.

so if you don't like it , next time think before you plan to just hurt me again.

[[ random thoughts right now . ]]

wanted*

I'm looking for a MAN, i repeat , a MAN ... not a boy.

he need these qualities;

-car
-cell phone
-JOB
-& his own place would be nice, but i won't knock him if he still lives at home.
-good dick. scratch that...GREAT dick.
& knows how to hit it from the back REALLLLL good.
-good personality
-doesn't have a girlfriend.

& for these wack ass, busted ass , stupid ass niggas that send me a messages on facebook talkin' bout they fit the description... READ my qualifications completely because all ya niggas had girlfriends. shiit she must not be doing something right over there ... lol.

tales from a groupie

"I arrived at her room and she was masturbating while Lil' Wayne played in the background. (IDK what the fuck was up with that) When she noticed, she kind of moaned and spoke at the same time telling me to come eat it.....".
--nicki minaj story.

sooo a few weeks ago, i came across this blog, "Tales From A Groupie". It is basically a blog where people that have had sexual encounters with celebs, share there story. I know its probably a WHOLE bunch of BULLSHIT... but its still interesting to read.

there are stories about; NICKI MINAJ, LIL WAYNE, SHIA LEBOUF, LUDACRIS & DIDDY - a lil bit of everybody.

go ahead -- check it outtttt.

http://www.backstagepazz.com/

sexgameSTUPID!

sex sex sex .
the wood - penis - dick

niqqas are fckin hilarious . I swear I'm so sick of hearing about "how good" the dick is . then I get it & its straight [BULLSHIT]* .

check this out ;;

this guy & I had a sexual encounter with, thought that his dick was like the sht . like , I even thought aye, this sht might be kinda good . I mean - his "swag" well his whole demeanor just yells - I gotta big ass dick & ya knw I heard some people say - hell yeah , that sht niceee . so - boom boom boom ; we fucking .

I kid yu not , 2 MINUTES into that shit, this niqqa cums .

I REPEAT [TWO MINUTES].

smh smh smh ...

then afterwards say some shit like , "ah yu gotta let me do it again, I promise shit like that doesn't ever happen".

--THE FUCK ?

niqqa it did happen & yur not ever gonna get another chance to "prove" yurself . now I could go & ruin your "mean dick repuation" ... but I'll wait until some sht pop off to do all that .

all I gotta say is - with niqqa this days ; dnt bragg on ya shit , if its not worth bragging about . its just pointless . some of my girls have had the same issues arise & I mean - its just a waste of time . I'm not tryna say yu need to go around saying yo sht small or wackk , but dnt openly share how amazing it is & in reality - sht is wackkkk as fuckk .

-LCC*

broken*

kinda personal - but oh well. (:

i think i'm broken.
--whatcha mean broken?
broken in a sense that - if i love you - or maybe in love with you ... kissing me is all your gonna get.
--WHAT ? that makes no sense.
alritee alritee ; i'll explain - i'll explain. (:

so ; starting my sexual ... beginnings - my first was some guy that to this day still doesn't mean shit to me. niqqa was sexy as fuck. like the sexiest niqqa i've fcked with- EVER, but us & a relationship; i knew it would never work.

second niqqa - i knew when i first started talkin to him - damn - i could see myself with him . but once we got to talkin & getting to know each other - i seen shit - he's not even my type. we agreed on only one thing which is sex. although he didn't know too much & neither did i, we learned from each other.

the two other guys - one of em used game. i knew it was game ; but i fell for it. i knew that shit wasn't going to work between us. & i figured that if i played along like a dumb btch-- it'd make him feel better & it did. he thought he had me with all the ,"baby, i miss you" or the " your the only one i want & were going to be together" BULLSHIT. but i'm smart - & i was physically attracted to him ... so hey - shit got popping. in the process of messing with him - i lost someone. [[no details]]
then the other guy-- waste of time.

but none of these guys - i was in love with / or had any kinda relationship feelings for.
& the people that i'm in relationships with or "love" - i never give them that chance. i don't know why but thats just how it goes.

broken?

is that the right way to describe whatever this is? or is it i haven't found the right one to "love" to give the chance too?
i've shared this with one niqqa i thought i "loved"- & he was really shocked & was glad that i told him that because he got insight to the way i see things & why i don't do shit with him. he seemed to have no problems. he was accepting of it.

at the end of the day - it seems like niqqas can do what they want or who ever they want ... & not get judged by who- or - how many btches they fck. when girls have the "niqqa mentality" - & say they fck mad niqqas - they are a hoe , whore, slut, & other names. i dnt get why there is such a issue. when guys do something is ok - but if a female did the same thing its wrong on her part. my friend has been having this issue in here life & that sht bothers us. & different guys give us there pros & cons about the whole situation. basically niqqas judge btches - but btches aren't suppose to judge a niqqa.

all of it is stupid to me - but i choose NOT to do shit with people. unless we've had past experiences- i'm not fckin with cha.

& if your reading this & your surprised -- guess what? its all the REAL facts. so whatever the FCK you've heard - gon ahead & smack the lying BTCH tht told cha. (:

signed ;

-LCC*

untitled*

sometimes i wish; i didnt catch feelings.i wish i couldn't open up & give people the best of me.its said that- the more you give yourself to someone; the more opportunity your giving them to hurt you.if that is true- no wonder why i'm always hurt.i tend to catch feelings rather quickly. i've tried with all my mite; not to- but my personality allows me too.i end up hurt; alone; and drowing in disappointment.its something i think i need to work on; but i'm not sure i'm how to.when i think that i've found that one person that is right & i think that they are right for me; as soon as i remove my guard; BOOM - i fall flat on my face. they change. everything changes

[soulmate]